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I'm trying...but this week, I'm weak.

Last weekend we had my son's birthday party. I wasn't even going to buy chips, so I wouldn't have an opportunity to eat them. I made a veggie tray and dip, a veggie pizza, and spinach dip. So many veggies!
My list said pretzels, and maybe chips. In my mind, that meant ONE bag of each. I even started a Walmart order (which I then cancelled due to my husband going to the store instead). I had ONE bag of generic pretzels on it (they were on sale). I did order a bag of Veggie Straws, and my husband wanted one from Sam's Club. So the Veggie Straws would be for the party, instead of chips. I was set! It was all going to help me not eat like I know that I shouldn't.
(BTW, I love chips. If I had to pick chips or a donut, I'd pick chips everytime - which is why I don't keep them in my house)
My husband comes home with: bag of pretzels, cheetos, bbq chips, chips, two bags of tortilla chips, Sam's Club Veggie Straws (like this bag could feed a football team), and the Veggie Straws from Walmart.  (both Veggie Straws did not go to the party)
We came home from the party with two bags of tortilla chips, bag of pretzels, bag of cheetos. We still had the two bags of Veggie Straws mind you. And, I asked for a bag of low salt chips to munch on during the Superbowl.

**I love my husband dearly, and he is an awesome guy. He just gets overzealous. The chips were on a sale where you had to buy a certain amount in order to get the sale price. I am the cheap one and would just head to find the dollar chips - LOL **

Turns out that at the party I barely ate anything. I had my water bottle and kept filling it and drinking. I was actually HUNGRY when I got home. (that's better than at Thanksgiving where I was so full that I was ill) But it was the days that followed that hurt me. The food was here, and I ate it!

The Cheetos and the low salt chips have been my downfall this week. I am having a rough personal time. So my emotions are all over the place. At first, I'd be really hungry, and grab something to eat, take one bit and be nauseous and toss it. But when it came to chips (and dip) or cake, I ate it. One day I had chips and dip for breakfast. Yes. I really did. I am disgusted with myself over this. I told my son to PLEASE EAT THE REST OF THE CHEETOS so I don't eat them. He said "just don't eat them". Child....I WISH I could just not eat them. It doesn't work that way. If they're here, I will eat them. Which is why most of 2018 we just didn't keep that stuff here.

Today I am really trying. NO CHIPS.
So far, so good.
I'll hold off on weighing in until tomorrow. Too many chips = too much sodium. One way or another I'm going to get my water in today and see what tomorrow morning holds for the me and the scale.

This stress I'm under might be my downfall though. We need to get rid of these chips STAT (and the remainder of the cake) so I can get back to normal.

We all have days that we fail, and this is mine. But I haven't given up. That's the beauty of this plan, it's not a "diet", it's just learning how to eat healthy. As long as you pick yourself back up and keep going, it's okay to have a bad meal or a bad day.





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