Yes, my journey to getting healthy is going slower than I had originally planned.
My original plan was 50lbs a year for two years. Well, I am in year three now, and I am close to reaching the 40lb mark.
See? Slower than I planned.
But...that almost 40lbs is gone and hasn't been seen in 3 years. THAT is an accomplishment that I am proud of. Every little bit counts.
And it hasn't been easy. I was close to this 40lb goal right before Thanksgiving - the same week my dad had a heart attack. The stress had me not eating at first, but then the anxiety kicked in and I made a few bad food choices. I had good moments and bad moments over the next month. But those bad choices didn't define me, and here I am, back on the threshold of that small milestone.
I chose a long term goal (2 years) so the weight is easier to keep off. So I can learn how to allow myself pizza once in a while, or baked potato chips as a treat, and bread!! But learn how to eat those things without overdoing it.
Once I hit my weight goal, I will be the weight I was before I got married, and I was even trying to lose weight back then! But I felt good. Some days now I feel good too (days that I'm not bloated, lol). And that is what I want out of all this, I want to feel good. I want to look in the mirror and like what I see. I want that reflection to also make me feel good.
And I am okay with changing the plan. Because as far as I am concerned, I am still winning this battle. Every pound lost is a win. Every pound kept off is a win. Every good choice I make is a win.
I'm not following a fad diet, nor am I denying myself. I just learned that I don't NEED fast food, or chocolate, or whatever. It is a hard lesson to teach yourself, but I know you can do it. If I can do it, than anyone can!! I have the least self control of anyone I know, lol...
And ironically, I used to hate the scale! I avoided it at all costs... but since I've been working hard to get healthy, I look forward to stepping on the scale. Even at the doctor! And I even ask them what I was last time I was weighed there.
But I'm proud of what I am accomplishing, and where I am headed on this journey.
Bad choices don't define us, resetting and making the next choice a good one is what counts.
My original plan was 50lbs a year for two years. Well, I am in year three now, and I am close to reaching the 40lb mark.
See? Slower than I planned.
But...that almost 40lbs is gone and hasn't been seen in 3 years. THAT is an accomplishment that I am proud of. Every little bit counts.
And it hasn't been easy. I was close to this 40lb goal right before Thanksgiving - the same week my dad had a heart attack. The stress had me not eating at first, but then the anxiety kicked in and I made a few bad food choices. I had good moments and bad moments over the next month. But those bad choices didn't define me, and here I am, back on the threshold of that small milestone.
I chose a long term goal (2 years) so the weight is easier to keep off. So I can learn how to allow myself pizza once in a while, or baked potato chips as a treat, and bread!! But learn how to eat those things without overdoing it.
Once I hit my weight goal, I will be the weight I was before I got married, and I was even trying to lose weight back then! But I felt good. Some days now I feel good too (days that I'm not bloated, lol). And that is what I want out of all this, I want to feel good. I want to look in the mirror and like what I see. I want that reflection to also make me feel good.
And I am okay with changing the plan. Because as far as I am concerned, I am still winning this battle. Every pound lost is a win. Every pound kept off is a win. Every good choice I make is a win.
I'm not following a fad diet, nor am I denying myself. I just learned that I don't NEED fast food, or chocolate, or whatever. It is a hard lesson to teach yourself, but I know you can do it. If I can do it, than anyone can!! I have the least self control of anyone I know, lol...
And ironically, I used to hate the scale! I avoided it at all costs... but since I've been working hard to get healthy, I look forward to stepping on the scale. Even at the doctor! And I even ask them what I was last time I was weighed there.
But I'm proud of what I am accomplishing, and where I am headed on this journey.
Bad choices don't define us, resetting and making the next choice a good one is what counts.
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