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A bit of Honesty

A bit of honesty...

My biggest issue (besides motivation to start) is self-control. I like food. I have always liked food. I'm Italian, I like bread and pasta! I like chips and cookies and cake. When I was serious about Burton Nutrition in 2018, I could eat all of those things and only eat a small portion and it was enough. I am back to the place where no amount is enough. I eat one portion, I want more. I still feel hungry. I still "crave" more of what I was eating.

It's miserable. Willpower is not my friend. I have to work at it. And getting started is the most difficult part. Excuses are easy. I'll start on Monday. I'll start after this sandwich. I'll start after this last piece of dessert. I'll start once the cookies are gone....and on and on.

I did good in 2018. I want to get back to that. But starting is hard.

Right now I am fighting that exact thing. Had a piece and a half of a sandwich for dinner. I know that was enough in my head. But my stomach wants more. It was DELICIOUS. I am sitting here forcing myself to not eat more. It is not easy. Real Talk.

Getting through the first month is the hardest part. I'll get back to you on how this is going...yikes!




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