Just an Author Trying to Get Healthy in a Fast Food World

I've felt really awful for the last week or so. Bloated and crummy... I'm eating way too many carbs, I know. But I felt like I gained 10+ pounds during this Pandemic Depression...luckily, in reality, I have only gained 6lbs since March. That's not as bad as I thought... But now Christmas is 4 days away. I'm not going to be too hard on myself. I can do that in January. But, I am going to watch my meal calories, and drink my water, and try to not snack all day like I have been. I have had a difficult time mentally through this, and food was my comfort. But I know better than that. Now it's time to get back to basics... Taking each day meal by meal, and weighing in to hold myself accountable.

  I'm not going to lie...trying to watch what I'm eating in this 2020 mess is difficult. 2020 hasn't been easy. Yes, I'm stress eating. Yes, I'm bored eating. And, yes, I'm depressed eating. I've decided that it is okay to feel all these things. This year has been miserable. It's not easy to find the positive when we are missing our families, our friends, and doing things that we enjoy. And if that means eating whatever I want sometimes, then I go for it. Because we don't have a lot to look forward to right now.  But I am trying to eat in moderation. If I snack during the day, I portion control dinner. Maybe I skip dessert, or I try to stop eating before it gets too late, and if I go to bed kind of hungry then so be it. I make dinner and it's something somewhat good for us. Life is hard right now, and we can use any bit of comforting we can get. The takeaway here is, don't be too hard on yourself. Once life gets back to normal we can run an e...

    And here I lay, stuffed full of turkey, stuffing, and pie... I've been feeling the anxiety and stress over the virus, and my eating habits have suffered. That's what stress does to me. Luckily, even though I've been eating awfully, I haven't gained weight. I haven't lost any either. And I'm over it. I need to get back at it. And Monday is the day to do it.

What is your reason for getting healthy? Mine is because I want some kind of control over my aging. I am 45 years old and I can see changes starting. Just because I am getting older doesn't mean I have to LOOK older. Yes, it's true that I want to look better. But I want to feel better too. I want to go for a walk without getting winded. I want to enjoy summer without sweating like mad. (well, peri-menopause may have something else to say about that) I want to feel like me, instead of the extra-large me that is always hiding. Add in all the health reasons, and that's why I'm doing it. I just want to feel better and be the best me that I can be. Not that there's anything wrong with being round. If you're happy, then rock it! There's no shame in that. The thing is, I am not happy (well, maybe sitting around my house I am, but not in public) and I am going to change it. Because I can. My journey has been a slow process. But it's not over. I st...

I'm stuck... The scale has not moved in the last 3 weeks. I mean, it's good it didn't go up, but it just stayed the same. And that is disheartening. I can't pinpoint what I need to change. I've been doing my shakes, watching the junk (depriving myself of things I want and making better choices), and eating more salads. The only things I can think of is I'm not exercising and some nights I've been breaking my own rule and eating a snack after 8pm. Granted, I did eat some lunchmeat yesterday. Maybe I'm retaining water from that. I wish I could go to the gym, but I'm not comfortable yet due to COVID. Yes, I'm over cautious about it (and that's my choice) but I wish things were back to normal. I liked using the treadmill and then a few machines like the Ab thingy. I try not to let the scale own me, but watching numbers drop is more motivation then numbers staying the same. I need to get outside and walking. Motivation is key - right...

Well, this week's weigh in was a bust. I didn't lost anything. But I knew that would be the case, because my whole body felt weighed down, like I was full of fluid. So I can only think the numbers on the scale weren't accurate. I don't know why I felt so bloated all weekend? We've been eating a lot of bagels - maybe that's it. I tried to drink my water this week, and thought I was doing pretty well. All I can do is get back at it tomorrow. That's all you can ever do - keep at it! I was hoping to find something to replace water in the afternoon, something that would still hydrate me, but no luck yet. Water can be hard sometimes... What keeps me going is how far I've come. I realized since I started this journey in 2018, I've lost 2inches off my stomach, and 4 inches off my hips. It might be small, but it's something, and it has stayed off. Small victories, and time to keep at it for more results! I have a goal, and I am determined to...

I'm the Turtle. Slow and steady wins the race... Lately I really feel like one! Since March. I admit, I got lazy - and I liked it! Who doesn't like sitting? A lot. But as you can see from my posts, I started to watch what I was eating again. Adding lots of veggies and watching my portions. I never gave up, I just got lazy. It was easier. But it was time to get back into it. And... It's working. :) Down 2 more pounds. - Go Me! - It makes me WANT to see those numbers drop on the scale each week. It makes me look forward to weigh in day. Strange, right? So, I gave myself a modified goal. I decided that once I reach my total weight loss goal, I will reward myself with a new tattoo that I not only want, but will remind me every day to never give up on being healthy. It's going to take me about a year, give or take a few months, to reach at my slow-and-steady-pace but it will be worth it. And will give me plenty of time to design the tattoo and save up for...